Wednesday, 18 September 2013

Oldest in the school yet youngest in the world!!

So, who else out there is in the same predicament as me right now? Yea I suppose you're right I should probably explain what predicament I'm in first to see if you can relate. In sixth year (final year of school) you can't wait to get out and go to college and live your life and yet you're terrified and this idea of leaving home terrifies you. You don't like school and tests and teachers annoy you but still you never want to leave?. You know exactly what path you want to go down in your life but you've so many doubts. You should only care about studying but your mind travels all over the place? I'm sure I'm not the only person out there feeling like that right now? Am I??...Surely I'm not

I didn't want to write a blog about serious or hard topics but this is something I think everyone can relate too, for me it's a dream of becoming a broadcast journalist, and freelance journalist and TV presenter and business woman and Mrs.Conor Murray such high goals and dreams but what would life be like without them? Some friends have dreams of animals, teaching, children in Dublin, Cork, Galway everywhere spread across the country some even leaving for the UK friends you think you'll have for ever may never be seen again when it comes to next September. A fear of losing those closest to you while you go and live your dreams in other areas yeah it's pretty scary but worth it I can imagine. Life as we know it is pretty much over and we're being thrown into the deep end here and what's worse I can't swim!!!

It's the way it goes though this life business, you go through secondary school you deal with the spots and the boys and the tests and that stupid Leaving Cert then at 17-18 you're made decide what you want to do for the rest of your life it's hardly fair is it? but that's what it is.. then you're off, moving out of your house and packing your 20 frozen dinners and 30 packs of baby wipes saying goodbye to mammy and your on your own going from the oldest people in the school to the youngest in this big world, yeah don't worry that scares me too!!

Life is scary at the end of the day, but it's your own life as RTE's presenter Diana Bunici once told me..
''It's a cheesy line, but life it what you make it it's your own customized personal playground''
and that's exactly what it is!!
 So yeah sure the Leaving Cert defines you right now and your points define the next 4-5 years but after that what defines you is yourself!!
So after going a bit to much emotional speaker here! All I can say is life is getting scarier and scarier and my small town life to big city transformation is a terrifying thought, but off I go!! I need my presenting, journalisting, marriage and franchise of pubs/night clubs... Watch this space!! ;--)

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